Firstly, another 1.5kg lost, putting me down to 82kg - another 7kg to go for ultimate target and just 4lbs to go till the 4 stone mark (4 weeks to do it to have completed it in a year!)
guess that its just a case of same shit different week really. I felt pretty dreadful about everything early on in the week and self certified off work for those 3 days (already had Saturday booked off, to assist with a car boot sale that never happened) and just spent the time chilling out, being me and doing a little soul searching. Anyway, the upshot is that I've worked out how I can get a GP and how I can get things kicked off and get the help I sorely need - not just the gender stuff but the depression etc as well - heck, its all bundled up together.
I'm looking forwards to getting back to work tomorrow and dreading it in equal measure. Work gives me something to focus on and gives me a reason to get up in the morning but I know I'm going to get awkward questions from my colleagues, I should be pleased really as its them wanting to help. I feel that (the majority of) my colleagues really do care about me and what's going on with me and if there was something they could do, they would. I guess that's an enviable position but its tricky as well - I guess that I bring it on myself a little because I am open and talk freely about the gender stuff when asked so people do ask but I'd far rather that than there being a dirty little whisper going around the office or feeling restricted in what I do to traditional male role things (I love sorting my nails out at my desk etc.)
This is going to be a weird week, but I have high hopes for it. 3 short days of training (9-5) and 1 normal day (10.45-8) but changing all of my days off etc. So when I return on Friday evening, I will hopefully have achieved 1) a good night out tomorrow 2) an interesting an educational week at work 3) and perhaps most important, be in the course of getting a GP registration - but that depends on bank paperwork arriving! I will be returning though to a car (rover) needing work with no MOT so thats going to be a bit of a downer.
On Sunday, I am going for an interview with Brighton Hospital Radio, I figure its a good way for me to get out a bit more and to mix in different circles and I've always had a bit of a fascination for radio, so it should pique my interest but we shall see.
Danni Out x
Monday 30 May 2011
Sunday 15 May 2011
Lax again
Firstly, I blame the "thoughts" thread on MSE for me not being so regular here, its so damned distracting!
First things first, weight down to 82.3kg! I'm seriously chuffed with that and getting a real sensation of getting there!
What has really become apparent to me is how much we can change in a year, I unearthed a picture from 29th May 2010, at the tvchix picnic
now, compare that to a pic from last night.....
I don't even look like the same person anymore! The weight loss is immediately obvious (although the 2010 pic is not the most flattering, it proves the point) and the whole shape of my face has changed, I've lost the jowels (I didnt realise I had) for one thing and my jawline has become smaller.
From the pics its clear that I'm holing myself with more confidence now and my outfit is a better ensemble than 2010 but I'm still learning but doing a far better job than I did before.
Anyway, just for the record the reason for dressing up was to go to Magic Theatre, I had a good time, met some very cool people and then back to Trees....
First things first, weight down to 82.3kg! I'm seriously chuffed with that and getting a real sensation of getting there!
What has really become apparent to me is how much we can change in a year, I unearthed a picture from 29th May 2010, at the tvchix picnic
now, compare that to a pic from last night.....
I don't even look like the same person anymore! The weight loss is immediately obvious (although the 2010 pic is not the most flattering, it proves the point) and the whole shape of my face has changed, I've lost the jowels (I didnt realise I had) for one thing and my jawline has become smaller.
From the pics its clear that I'm holing myself with more confidence now and my outfit is a better ensemble than 2010 but I'm still learning but doing a far better job than I did before.
Anyway, just for the record the reason for dressing up was to go to Magic Theatre, I had a good time, met some very cool people and then back to Trees....
Sunday 1 May 2011
Consistency
I dont really feel that I have a heck of a lot to write today. I forgot to write last week but weight was 83.1kg.
My target this week was to maintain that weight as it was Easter Sunday and I went out for a curry on Friday so I was chuffed to bits to see 82.9kg on the scales this morning!!
I played my first ever round of golf on Friday too and rather enjoyed it, long walk and lots of blisters at the end but hit a pretty decent first round of 115. Yes, I know its a rubbish score really - but for first attempt I feel pretty good about it. To put it in context the chap I was playing with (who's been doing it for about 2 years) hit a round of 110 - so not too bad really!
I'm out and about for the next 2 weeks so measurements might be a bit tricky but again the target is maintainance rather than actual loss but fingers crossed really.
My target this week was to maintain that weight as it was Easter Sunday and I went out for a curry on Friday so I was chuffed to bits to see 82.9kg on the scales this morning!!
I played my first ever round of golf on Friday too and rather enjoyed it, long walk and lots of blisters at the end but hit a pretty decent first round of 115. Yes, I know its a rubbish score really - but for first attempt I feel pretty good about it. To put it in context the chap I was playing with (who's been doing it for about 2 years) hit a round of 110 - so not too bad really!
I'm out and about for the next 2 weeks so measurements might be a bit tricky but again the target is maintainance rather than actual loss but fingers crossed really.
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